::Dreamx can come true::

holiday wishes.

2005-11-08T18:46:00.000-08:00

20 things i hope to/must do during this dec holiday:

1) study.
2) pass my chem, amath and emath.
3) go library study.
4) dont complain.
5) attend all choir practices.
6) attend all jap lessons.
7) stop being lazy.
8) learn to mind my own business.
9) become a better person.
10) do my extra-extra-holiday hw.
11) save money.
12) lose 2 kgs.
13) gym almost everyday.
14) reduce phone bills.
15) reduce no. of sms'es.
16) repair ipod.
17) study. and play.
18) dont become a nerd.
19) forget ppl and things not worth rmbing.
20) lurv my frens and myself more.

+life will be better de. =))

blading steamboat-ing and kbox-ing x))

2005-10-23T15:54:00.000-07:00

havent been blogging for a mth.
nth much happened these days.
oh yahh, went blading and steamboat-ing.
kbox-ing too. had so much funn. =))
you can read abt them at jas's blogg.
cuz i'm simply too lazy to type. x))

shall go bowling someday.
arcade too.
dont noe how i'm going to do all that.
after the dreaded day. thats tmr.
results. i've a bad feeling. =((

--> i hate that gurl in the mirror.

horoscop-ed. x))

2005-09-26T18:27:00.000-07:00

If there is one word that can sum you up it is elegance. Both in your taste for material acquisition and relationships as well. You love the beautiful and that which is in harmony and peace. Any sort of abrasive behaviour or disturbance affects you negatively. Venus is the planet of Love and is reflected in all of these character traits.

You value friends very highly but at times do not discriminate carefully enough between what is of use, and what should be discarded. It appears that you would rather be unhappily in love than not in love at all.

haha. horoscopes. =Pp

i noe i shldnt believe in them.

but i still choose to believe lahh.

elegance in relationships lehh. x))

andd yes, i lurv peace andd harmony.

i wld rather be unhappily in lurv,

den not in lurv at all.

guess that's true too. haha.

is that a good or badd?? i dunno.

but it seems stupidd to me.

letting yrself be unhappy,

when lurv shld be happy de. haha.

it's true,

that some ppl are always on the move,

andd shld spendd some time in one place.

also, he exhibits interest in far too many areas.

thus shld remain focusedd.

he is also swift.

haha. ok, i'm sooo 'indirect'. x))

--> i lurv friendship. =))

mugging. x))

2005-09-25T21:36:00.000-07:00

ahh, i'm so =(:).
andd i fat lerr.
my motherr says so. =((
but she keeps buyingg food!!
ahh, her fault lahh. haha.

anw, congratulate me.
cuz i just startedd mugging. haha.
i noe i'm so deadd. x((
but better late den neverr. =))
andd gym-ed again ytd.
dun ask if i've got too much time to spare.
andd i noe abt the eoy's.
but exercise is gd lorr. haha.

haix. it's hard to resist..
that temptation to on my comp.
haha. *shrugs. cant help it. ><
but i'll just leave it on while i mugg.
that shld be fine bahh. =))
fine, end here den.
like i said, noone bothers to read anw.

--> i hate food.

gym-ed =))

2005-09-17T23:12:00.000-07:00

i dont understandd.
why cant ppl treasure lurv??
it doesnt come by easily lorr.
andd ppl treat it like ~~shitt~~.
wadd happened?!! =((

okie. i'm so =(:)
ate a lot nowadaes.
~~pizza~~. ~~bread~~. ~~chocolatex~~.
think i gained 1kg lerr.
so went gym todae. =))
ran for 40 mins.
and did the leg "thingg".
dunno wad you call that.
haha. so shuang now.
feel so "exercised". x))
shall go again tmr.

now i noe.
its nicer to be lurved.
den to lurv.
but sometimes things happen.
and we got to learn to ~~let go~~.
--> i still hate ~~guys~~.

stupidd guys

2005-09-14T22:14:00.000-07:00

okiee. fine.
i'm ~~stupidd~~. =((
for listeningg to ppl's lies.
~~stupidd~~. =((
andd believing in them.
~~stupidd~~. =((
everythingg was a lie.
~~stupidd~~. =((
it was nv true.
~~stupidd~~. =((
so now i noee.
andd i hope i've become smarterr.
maybe i shldd ~~thank~~ you for datt.
forr making me smarter.
~~thanks.~~ ALOT. =((

guys do all the ~~wrongg~~ things.
they only hurt ppl. =((
they are selfishh. =((
they only playy games. =((
they are nv seriouss. =((
they lie. =((
andd go arndd spreading ~~AIDS~~.
~~stupidd~~ irritating ppl. hrmph. =((

so pq was right lorr.
maybe everyone noes.
exceptt me.
cuz i was ~~stupidd~~.
but not anymore.

nth much happenedd todae.
hadd chem extra lesson.
andd we bought foodd to eat in cls.
so shuangg. =))
first choco-bun.
denn cha-sao-bao. ((x
andd chocolatex.
yam yam. ^^
green tea.
so it wasnt a lesson lorr.
we were picnic-ingg. haha. =))

havingg ~~gastric~~ now again.
stupidd body. =((
always gimme problems de.
andd i'm so tiredd.
dunno why. i'm jux tiredd.
tiredd of everythingg.
tiredd of my life.
haii. hate my ~~stupidd~~ dull life.
shall endd here.
noone bothers to readd this anw.

-->i hate ~~guys~~.

guardiann angel

2005-09-13T17:58:00.000-07:00

to see, set encodingg to unicode utf8.

``guardiann angel--*
是否记得守护天使的游戏
从我抽到你的卡片起
不再是一个人的回忆
或许未来有快乐也有艰辛
我会把你紧抱在怀里
永远不让你为爱哭泣

如果天空只剩最后
一个闪烁的星
我会让它为你照亮孤寂
让辛福为你指引
总有一天你会看到
Guardian Angel 降临
那是我的心一直在守护你
天使它一定能够感应

如果天空只剩最后
一个闪烁的星
我会让它为你照亮孤寂
让辛福为你指引
总有一天你会看到
Guardian Angel 降临
那是我的心一直在守护你
天使它一定能够感应
``------endd------*
get songg at:
http://superstarjy.blogspot.com/2005/08/jy-media.html

took 72 home with pq.
denn we alightedd halfwae.
andd walked to hougangg.
haha. can jiann fei. =))
denn took train hm. haha.

ahh. chinese lessonn so maluu. ><
made me playy piano.
andd i forgot all the songs lerr.
so anyhow playy one small part.
andd playedd infront of pro de jon.
haii. malu lorr.

like this guardiann angel songg alot.
finally foundd it lerr. =))
'祝我生日快乐' also very nice.
very very sadd de.
will make me cry lorr. ='((

haha. okiee.
shall act guai and go mugg lerr.
32 daes to freedom. *faints.

-->那是我的心一直在守护你.^^

exams ))x

2005-09-11T15:46:00.000-07:00

ahh. i needd to exercise. =((
so longg never really sweat lerr.
ok fine. 'perspire'.
shall go gym at 5 laterr.
so excitedd. >< haha.
so long nv exercise lerr.
i'm not mad.

shall learnn japanese this december hols.
suddenly feel like learningg de.
cuz it sounds nice. =))
shall dragg friends with me too. haha.
andd my mom wants me to learn guitarr.
this december hols will be ratherr busy.
got so many things to learnn. =Pp

decidedd to be guai for 2 wks 3 days.
until the ~~exams~~ beginn.
den maybe relax abit andd sit for ~~exams~~.
shall go home straight afterr sch. ))x
dunno can make it marhh. =
but i'll try. ^^

and...
i will stop being ~~pessimistic~~ frm now.
at least until ~~exams~~ are overr.
i will stop thinking of ~~stupid stuff~~.
i will stop thinking of ~~sad stuff~~.
i will stop thinking of ~~death~~.
i will stop thinking of ~~life~~.
i will stop counting down to ~~exams~~.
instead count down to endd of ~~exams~~.
35 daes. ))x
told you i'm optimistic. ^^

birthday thanks.

2005-09-07T15:58:00.000-07:00

2 mths lerr.
finally gett to update. =))
hmm. 2 mths lerr.
alot things happenedd.
came. andd then wentt.
but time cant go backk.
andd things cant be changedd.

anw, ppl i really needd to thankk:
thanks for my burfdae surprise!! =))
thanks for all the 'happy burfdae's.
thanks for the burfdae songs.
thanks for the pressie.
thank my ma for the pizza.
thanks to those who cheered me up.
thanks to those who listened.

hmm. now i'm 1 yr olderr.
hate to be 15.
olderr = more stress.
haii.
lost the moodd to blogg again.
shall end here.
sorrie. =((
just not in the mood. =((

andocarnivall =))

2005-07-09T23:29:00.000-07:00

i still hate andocarnivall. hahax.
had a lame 23ohh4 balloonn fight.
hahax. so funn. =))
andd ate alot at the carnivall.
ry kept scoldingg me greedyy. hahax.
the food was nice wadd.
cantt blame me de. hahax.
after carnivall went tpy with jas andd kuays.
went to de elements to cut hairr.
yeahh. finally cut my hair lerr. =))
jas jass and cixin waitedd for hours. =Pp
thanks for waitingg aniwae =))
denn went mos burgerr for lunchh cum dinner.
hmm. frm pq's blogg:
'love is lettingg go of the ones you love,
hoping datt they'll come backk to you
whenn they realise wadd they've lost.'
hmm yahh. thought it overr.
lurv andd friendship's not owningg someone.
give them freedom andd trustt.
no wonder you're a history student.
you dont understand. and you dont feel.
perhaps you wontt care
andd you wont wantt to know.
but i said wadd i hadd to say.
andd now its up to you to understandd.
--> lurvv andd friendship's not owningg someone.

chinese oral over lerr! =))

2005-07-08T19:54:00.000-07:00

yeahh. oral finally over lerr!
hahax. yeahh! =))
foundd out there's listening compre nxt wk.
dun care lahh. hahax.
i hate andocarnivall.
hate all these crapp.
andd our cls booth still not set up. =((
wonderr wads gonna happen tmrr.
hahax. dunn care ler lahh.
shall stay happie. =))
congrats to uniform grp ppl.
got your posts ler orhh. jiayoux! =))
hmm. yahh. i cant.
dunno how to stayy angry withh some ppl.
jux cant make myselff stay angryy.
andd jux cant ignore some thinggs.
am not thinkingg too muchh lorr.
and i can sense thinggs.
not askingg for too muchh.
jux wantt the truthh frm you.
is datt too muchh to ask for?
--> i want the truth. frm you.

spaghetti for recess! =))

2005-07-07T15:41:00.000-07:00

cant believe itt.
reachedd home at 3.15 todae.
and i plann to finish all my maths ws.
so guai horhh? hahax.
cookedd spaghetti for pjs de recess todae.
it doesnt look edible lorr.
harden lerr. hahax.
but kuays and pq thoughtt it was nice lorr.
only jas datt piggie eat till so xin ku.
gd lorr. ppl wake up at 5 to cook de lehh.
okie. but i agree lahh.
it really didntt look edible. hahax.
but it still wasnt dat badd right? hahax.
time passedd so quickly todae.
tmr will be chinese oral lerr.
jiayoux 35ohh5`erx. =))
sometimes i shldd juz actt like i dont noe anything.
juz actt like i didnt see anything.
yah. makes life easierr for me.
andd thanks to those people
who listenedd to my crap everydae.
thanks alott. =))
wonderr how you all can standd me de.
even i cant standd myselff lorr.
hmm. aniwae thanks lahh.
hope datt life gets better eachh dae.
--> ignorance is bliss.

stupid shi bai serene.

2005-07-06T22:55:00.000-07:00

some things juz cant be changedd.
and i'm stupidd.
thought i couldd change everythingg.
i'm stupidd.
i cant change anythingg.
ya. gave myselff the chance to get hurtt.
frm now s is not= serene.
s= stupidd. ss= stupidd serene.
haii. stupidd. *shi bai..* =((
why am i so shi bai lorr.
toldd myselff not to get upset ler.
but wo zuo bu dao.
ahh. stupidd. hate myselff.
andd stupidd things juz affect me too muchh.
--> i cant change anythingg.

initial`d =))

2005-07-05T21:49:00.000-07:00

watchedd initial`d todae.
finally! omgg.
jay is so cutee =))
edison is so shuaii =Pp
racing is so cool. hahax.
the movie is so nicee.
but the endingg is so sadd. ='[
ahhs. jay! edison! cars! ahh. hahax.
[[ pq-- jayy won the race.
jay won edisonn. wahahahax.
jay so shyy. hahax =) ]]
--initial`d rawkx--*
knowing the truth can really hurtt.
but it's betterr den being fooled,
and not knowing anythingg.
at least i noe wads going onn.
as least i'm not keptt in the darkk.
perhaps i noe too muchh.
i noe things datt i shldnt noe.
but it's gd to knoww.
shld be gladd.
maybe you like playingg games.
but i dont like being the toyy.
okie, i shldntt believe in horoscopes.
but maybe itt's true.
decisions are hardd.
but a decision i mustt make may be now.
shldntt compromise.
i shldnt thinkk.
--> i dont like being the toy.

brainwashh me.

2005-07-04T18:06:00.000-07:00

it's not my faultt.
i was right.
i am not sorrie.
andd i shldnt be.
kor thanks forr ur advice.
but i was rightt.
i wasnt thinking too muchh.
some things are just excuses.
i dont like excuses.
i dont like lies.
tears just come downn too easily nowadaes.
wont let tears flow againn.
i wont.
forget everythingg.
--> brainwashh me.

::horoscope::

You could be at odds with someone,
who wants a part time relationship,
rather than a full time one,
which is where you're coming from just now.
Sometimes there's no compromising Virgo,
and decisions are hard.
but a decision you must make,
as unpleasant as that,
may be now.

::cant believe it. it's so damn true.::

sorrie. didnt mean it de. =((

2005-07-04T11:18:00.001-07:00

shit lahh.
already 'fan' enough lerr.
now my ma dun let me go outt lorr.
say my hw haven finish.
assessment never do.
haii. wth. =((
life sucks.
everything sucks lahh.
tinking of waes to die now.
jumping off a building would be funn.
and can experience bungee jumpingg.
eating painkillers abitt too xin ku.
and will puke. den veryy no image. hahax.
inhaling gas is the best lahh.
painless and can slpp peacefully.
hmm, make up my mind lerr.
inhaling gas is the best wayy. =))
and now ppl ignore me.
didnt mean it de marhh.
didnt noe u will angry marhh.
since everything's like a joke to u.
no marhh? =((
--> sorriex.
hmm. i agree.
'why muz we screw ourselves up cuz of a guyy?'
hahax. thanks lorr jas.
succeeded in making me laughh todae.
thanks loadds. =)) hahax.

happie 37ohh5 dae

2005-07-03T13:49:00.000-07:00

yeahh.. happie 37ohh5 dae!! =))
hmm.. stoning at home againn.
[lj. u happie ler lorr.]
pq coming muhh hse at 5.
going gym.
life sucks.
to those not involved.
just shuddup.
i dun wanna hear anything.
shuddup. shuddup. shuddup.
-->is it trust. or u juz dont care.

yeahh i'm blogging again =)

2005-07-02T10:22:00.000-07:00

yeahh! my new bloggie =))
deleted all my old posts.
changed blogskin.
now same as pq de.
juz thought this skin's nice so put lerr.
we gort telepathy marhh. hehex.
nvm lahh.. lazy to change.
got to pia my 12 geog essay questions and maths lerr.
buhbyee.tag everyonee.
--> getting rid of me ler marhh?